Family time

My sister came to visit over the last weekend. We caught up, drank, talked about stuff, and she cooked, so I have food in the house. Food. Nice.

The funny thing about having family around is that when it happens infrequently enough that it's an honest-to-goodness event, it's important to take advantage of that time. That shouldn't mean I don't do any writing things, but that's exactly how it feels. I had this little 'tick, tick, tick' in my head, letting me know that whatever I'm doing at the moment may be fun, but it's not editing. 

I should be editing. I should be spending at least a little time staring at this pile of words and trying to beat it into submission. On the plus side she finally read my first draft and really liked it. 

And then - at my request - she poked holes in it. Lots of holes. Some of them I have a way to fix, and others I have no blooming idea on how to fix yet. There's still that big horrible plot hole that I need to find and fix. 

I'm glad she came. New things to do once I've finished the thing I'm doing. This writing stuff certainly isn't boring. Now to go do some more editing, and at some point I know I'll need to figure out where I've accidentally left a good third of the printed pages that I left scribbles over. 

Maybe I could have asked my sister.

Funny that

I can't remember where we heard the phrase, but it goes like this: "Life is funnier than shit."

At some point yesterday, I smiled for a photo. Right now, I don't know exactly when or why. Later on that day I found out my daughter was dead. She's 18. I know I should be using past tense. I know this. I also know that from this point on, she'll always be 18.
Right now, I just don't know what to do with that, but I have a family and they're hurting, and I know what my function is at the moment. 

There are lots of people visiting at the family house. They aren't my friends, but they are there to console the family so I can appreciate that. My friends - the ones I want to have close - aren't near. They have families. As far as I'm concerned right now, they should be with their family whenever they can.

I didn't want this to be my first post, but if anything is going to give me a kick up the backside and do something with my life, it would be this.

I have access to social networks, but i'm not in the mood to share with all and sundry. This is a brand new blog. nobody will read it, and I really need somewhere that I can write this out.

Life is funnier than shit. I'm not one for swearing (in public), but under the circumstances, I'm ok with this one. Yesterday, I went to work, smiled for a photo, and my daughter died.