This is not the place or forum to talk about personal things, therefore I won't. What I will say is that no matter how much you intend for your personal life not to impede upon your professional one (and in this case I'm going to include this blog as professional. The biggest reason for that is that if I'm going to act like I'm a writer, then this has to be my job. I haven't done a great job about it, but I'm working on getting better a little bit at a time), there are times when things happen that are so darned big that they seem to drown out other things.
My day job has been like that. My personal life has been like that. I'm guessing that most anyone that has read more than one post can relate to it as well. The only thing I can say in times like this is that fair has nothing to do with what happens. Fair is what you tell your children and sometimes try to write about... and sometimes not.
Life, real life has never had much to do with fair. Real life is. That's what it does. It doesn't matter about points of view, or how much one has tried, or anything other than what is, and what people believe. When it comes to writing something, what is, is what you have put down on paper, packaged well, and let loose on the world. The question you have to ask yourself is "have I written something to the best of my ability, have I tried to package it to the best ability I have at the moment, and have I let it loose in the world?"
If you only have a limited time to do something, have you put in the passion and the care and the words that really mean something into it? What happens if you look back and realise you only had the one shot? What happens if you see this a day, or a post, or a publication later and you realise that you didn't actually take the risk and say what you felt, not just what you thought?
You are a writer. You are a writer because you want to be a writer. If you want to be a writer then practise. All the time. Send an email and say it in the best way to get not only the point, but also the feeling across. Do you care about what you're doing, what you're saying? Have you paused to think about what the person on the other side of the book, of the page, of that email will pick up? What is it you want from them?
Care. Mean it. Say something that matters, or in the very least, write something that you believe. If it's just a fact, then state it so it is non-refutable. If it is a feeling, then give of yourself to let them know. If it's a scene then believe in it, and therefore let them believe in it too. Share. If words have power, then they have the power of a surgeon and the power of a teacher and the power of an artist. They don't have to be perfect words, but if there isn't any substance to it, then at least let them have a point.
